Posts Tagged ‘Relationships’


I’ll always remember Mark Lloyds dad. He was a big man and scary too. Nobody messed with him and I never saw anyone speak to him, ever. He went to work and came home and that was it. I was friends with Mark for a time and I went inside his house. He had an end house so had a bigger garden then the other houses. It was nice and tidy and Mark’s mum was friendly and talkative, the complete opposite of his dad. I remember once Mark and me were playing outside my house and his dad came walking up the street towards us. As he got closer he asked me to leave as he had something he wanted to say to Mark. Instead of going inside as anyone normally would I opened the garden gate and walked down to the valley! I’ve no idea why I did this as it would have been the accepted thing to walk inside my house but no, I decided to go off in a completely unexpected direction. I can imagine Mark and his dad watching me now wondering what I was doing and why. Having said that I could never work out what the attraction was for Mark’s mum to his dad but life can be strange like that. I might have seen Mark after that but I can’t remember if I did for certain. Life can be strange life that.


from the first light of the flickering filament
to the soiling of that clean white nappy
playing with toys, learning the rules of life
that scary first day with other frightened kids
and the years of listening and learning that follow
to end up cast into a world of love and hate
hunting for jobs to help me build a life
drinking in haunts to help me forget i live
meeting my first and only true love
repopulating the planet with my seed
watching them grow into miniature versions of me
as they repeat the process of life that i have been through
we grow old together and head towards
the unavoidable fate that besets all humanity
leaving behind all that we know and love
these are the memories of life i have accumulated
refuse festering in the dustbin of my mind


If I could speak to you like the

Heather speaks to my bare feet as

I run to reach you, be near you

Avoiding stones the way you avoid me

 

If I could connect with you like an

Eagle connects with the currents of air

High above the cold mountain

Where your emotions lay breathing

 

If I could leap into your arms like a

Salmon returning home to the

Place it was born to die

As I die every day without you

 

If I could see you just one more time

Before I became extinct in your eyes

Flesh dripping into the earth, bones

Crumbling to dust, feeding the worms

 

The answers to my questions would be

Fulfilled the wise old owl told me

And I would know where I stand

Instead of feeling lost in your web of silk


I haven’t had much time to write anything recently as I’m in the final few months of my degree and that is taking up all my time, energy or mental resources. However I have been going to my weekly workshop and at the last one I came up with these around the theme of eclipse. I hope you enjoy them J

At once I am a storm

And the cause of the storm

I am a paradox

Causing and creating

The storm I am in

A storm of such violence and passion

It threatens to consume

Everything I know and

Spit it out so

That nothing remains

Except the light

At the end of the tunnel


As sure as the

Cow jumped over the moon

The eclipse stopped

The sun from spying

On its minions below


Like a total eclipse of the sun

I blocked out the memory of you

And the way you left behind

Your smiles festering in the

Dirty washing up that still

Remains there to this day

A thick brown sludge that

Smirks knowingly at me


Can 30 years of living

A life in a cloud filled

With droplets of acid

Be eclipsed with a drop

Of sweat falling to the earth

And showing the flower

The way to the sun…


In the final solution

The only solution

Is to eclipse all

Solutions that have

Gone before


You eclipsed my life

With the touch of

Your hand on my face

Yesterday so soft and gentle

Today destroying everything

I understand and take for granted

As your heart turns from a

Passionate, intense warmth to a

Chill that breaks bones, rips skin

And I am trapped by the fear

Of today vicious and violent

And the memories of the past

Distant and carefree


I wake up in wet grass

That rots my sweaty skin

Tears of green stained on my face

As I stare at a flock of birds

Going round and round in circles

Forever and ever as a

Thin white light pierces a leaf

Trying in vain to warm a butterfly

Through the grey chilled air

That sends my dimpled skin

Into spasms as it tries vainly

To keep warm and stop my

Mind from freezing over


How she longs to feel his body next to

Hers once again, to be pulled so

Close to him that they become one

And she can feel his skin breathing

On hers, his heartbeat pulsing through

The tips of his fingers as they bathe in

Pools of morning dew created by a storm

Of passion, so intense, so ferocious, that

 

The very essence of the planet permeates

Their souls as their spirits entwine and become

One, creating seismic eruptions as universes are

Torn asunder creating a heavenly performance

Of dancing stars that follow the rhythmic beat of

Two hearts hammering out a message of

Longing to be near each other, to hear each other,

Smell each other, taste each other

 

Just one more time