Posts Tagged ‘never ending’


At the moment I’m experiencing headaches on a daily basis and have been since July 2019. I’m currently waiting for the results from an MRI scan I had before Christmas. This poem reflects in part how I experience the headaches.

the excitement fades
the adrenalin goes
my body returns to normal
and they attack again
they’ve been waiting in
hiding in the deepest
recesses of my brain
waiting for the opportunity
to come out and dull
my senses, cloud my mind,
confuse me, delude me,
wear me out, make me doubt
everything i know and understand
the headaches are back
after a morning away
on holiday somewhere
returning today to cripple
my mind and body
coming back when i
least expect them
least need them
time and time again


the noise is chasing me
wherever i go,
whoever i’m with
the noise is there
never ending, ceaseless,
in its pursuit of me
a relentless white noise
i cannot see,
i cannot touch,
but i hear it
it has no source
no way of turning it off
there is no escape from this
single, monotonous tone
except death…


i watch people go by
like rats in an
overground sewer
scurrying here and there
searching for their
next morsel of life
to gorge themselves on