Posts Tagged ‘forgetting’


i’m asked a question
and my mind goes blank
like a painters canvas.
there is nothing there.
I feel as if I am living
a breathing death, frozen
to the spot, unable to think
or speak or move, terrified
as I try to process what is
happening to me, a vision of
my future that is more
frightening than any
dystopian vision I know, a
vision of never remembering
my past, my friends, my life,
a mind of blank canvases going
through motions that don’t
register. I am so scared.


forget me as Christmas
comes along and you
prepare to go to
stay with your family
far away from me

forget those first furtive
glances we shared across
the table as we wrote
our life stories in
silence broken by pencils

forget the first time
we spoke sitting next
to each other avoiding
looking at one another
until we had to

forget the first time
we walked to the
pub alone save for
the streetlights showing
the way as we talked

forget the first time
we hugged in the
pub embracing each other
warmly in full public
view and not caring

forget the first time
we kissed in the
mist our lips warming
each other as the
cold swirled around us

forget all this and
go and enjoy your
loved ones as you
celebrate the festive season
with those you love

and when you come
back in the new
year and we meet
again see if you
remember or forget me


what was life like
before the headaches
back in the stillness
of a hot July day
i remember thinking was
clearer, sharper, faster,
more focused, more…real
now things are…
cloudy, slow, blurry,
confusing sometimes
less important, less meaningful,
sapping all the energy i have
getting the washing up done
is an achievement someday’s
whereas before the headaches
it was five forgotten minutes
just like that hot day
in July is now…