Posts Tagged ‘changes’


the headaches bring with them
a calming down of the senses
less stress, less anxiety
as my mind fights
to stay awake leaving
no energy to worry
about the things that
used to be important


what was life like
before the headaches
back in the stillness
of a hot July day
i remember thinking was
clearer, sharper, faster,
more focused, more…real
now things are…
cloudy, slow, blurry,
confusing sometimes
less important, less meaningful,
sapping all the energy i have
getting the washing up done
is an achievement someday’s
whereas before the headaches
it was five forgotten minutes
just like that hot day
in July is now…


It’s my first year at Tong and I’m doing well academically. I’m getting top grades in all my subjects and soon will be progressing to the top tier. I’m still living on Holmewood at this point and walking to Marks everyday to call for him and go to school with him. I’m enjoying life, enjoying school. Everything seems so easy, so much fun. Little do I know how life is going to take a turn that will forever alter my life and turn it upside down. Life won’t be as easy after this event. This is when life gets hard for me.


It’s September and even in a world of uncertainty I feel calm and relaxed. Maybe it’s because the warm summer months have now gone and there is a cool, refreshing breeze in the air that makes it easier for me to breath and run that does it? Or it could be the changing of the seasons from bright colours to more subdued but still majestic ones that makes it easier on my eyes that makes me feel calmer? I love September and seeing all the changes around me as children go back to school, my cats fur starts growing longer in preparation for winter and different foods appear in the markets marking the time when we have to start storing food for winter incase we are snowed in. one of my passions is running over the moors and it’s here that I really notice the difference. The colours change from purple swathes of heather to greens and browns making it seem harsh and bleak but I find it magical as these colours sweep before me endlessly rolling over the moors. September and autumn bring longer nights too so we have less time to do what we want to do in the day and while this can be limiting it makes me more productive as I know I can’t leave things till later to do as the later might not be enough time. i understand why people don’t like September and autumn because of the changes but I love being on my own on the moors surrounded by the bleakness of the South Pennine moors, away from people and society and all the problems they can bring. To me it’s truly getting away from it, no phone signal here, and knowing that one wrong move can leave me alone and exposed to the elements with little hope of being found. It gives me a sense of adventure I don’t find with spring and summer when you see someone at every turn and you feel safe. Yes bring on the rain and mud and the solitary experience of being at one with nature that autumn brings for me. Have a great September and autumn everyone.


last week it was warm and dry
no wind, no rain, no mud
i ran free, i ran with ease
leaping over rocks
flying down embankments
soaring over hills
splashing through streams

today my feet are wet and cold
covered in mud, heavy to move
running is slow as i fight the elements
wind rips the skin away from my face
the cold penetrates my clothes
laughing at my futile attempts
to keep it out

in a week summer has gone
and autumn has arrived

blue replaced with endless greys
clear skies with threatening darkness
dry, hard trails are now
thick with layers of mud
puddles litter the paths
leaves dance in the wind
as the autumnal opera begins


the world changed when i was born

not in a big way

nothing earth shattering happened

no earthquakes to announce my birth

no volcanos erupting to drown my screams

no hurricanes to blow away my mothers pain

but for my mum, my dad, my family

the world changed when i was born

the world changed when you was born

the world changes when every baby is born


How do you inspire others? How do you get somebody else, maybe someone you don’t even know to do something they never thought they ever do?

To be honest I don’t know. Yet friends of mine are increasingly saying I’m an inspiration to them and others. But why when all I’m doing is trying to improve myself and my life chances?

What got me wondering about the whole inspiration business is some comments I’ve recently received about how I have changed my body and the way I look.

It began this year when I decided to take my running seriously because I have several plans I would like to explore and my fitness may play a part in following them through. So I started going back to my local running club and going out running on my own more.

And instead of just going through the motions I began to push myself to go faster, go further, do more. I changed my diet, dramatically. At first it was difficult as my body adjusted to so many changes all at once but now it feels natural eating and drinking reasonably healthy.

And of course the weight began to drop off and my body began to change, people noticed and the good comments started flowing. And them people started asking me what I was doing and why and I told them. And a couple of people have started running or walking because I inspired them. Some more are thinking about doing it because they have seen the transformation in me in person.

And maybe that’s the key to being an inspiration to others, being someone they can relate to in real life, someone they know, they can see, they can talk to about what made me go out and change my life.

But that’s not to forget that I have people who inspire me as well, people I can relate to in real life. Some of these are people I’ve known a long time, others have just come into my life, but all of them in some way inspire me and as a consequence I inspire others which is I think quite important in life.

Because if you can use the inspiration of others to transform your life and in turn inspire others to transform their lives, then you have done something very worthwhile in life.