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You have been with me
Twenty seven years or more
The finest cut a man ever made
Sometimes you hide from me
And I search for you slowly
To remind me of the then
And now, today, tomorrow
All my yesterdays
Perfectly put together
Like a fine glass sculpture
Nobody knows what you conceal
Days lost forever
Youth I will never get back
Memories unable to recall
But for the searing knife
Burning through flesh and organs
Moving silently, unseen, untouched
No scars remain
Except the memory of a
Deep, powerful, intense pain
As I watch every second
Drip slowly into me
The torture of water
Only the colour changes
Reminding me of time passing
Fine steel tips deep in my body
Life flows through them
Swelling my veins
Eyes kept open
That cannot see the scars of
Knives and needles
But remember the scars of
Pain and sickness
That never dim with time

Ghost chemo

Posted: February 26, 2015 in Anthony Wilson
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A haunting poem from Anthony Wilson about cancer.

Anthony Wilson

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It’s hard to describe.

One day your are fine, not quite the same (age will do this to you), then bam, something like a steamroller has massaged your body during the night, making sure it reversed out of the bedroom the way it came.

Tiny areas of your body, previously unknown to you, now throb with soreness.

Imagine the handle of a screwdriver. Something is screwing its handle into your hipbone. Just as the pain eases, or you get used to it (it’s hard to know the difference), the prodding begins in the side of your opposite buttock. This also eases, just at the point that your knees become jelly. And your neck. Who thought holding up a head could be so much work!

Now imagine the blades of a pair of nail scissors. Somehow they have found their way inside your kidneys. It’s hard to tell if they are…

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you got inside my body

came from nowhere

unnoticed, unannounced, unknown

an alien seed mutating

from a nameless source

not the tree of life though

and you spread your roots

far and wide

reaching every part of my body

every muscle

every bone

every organ

that enables me to live

and you came

and tried to take it all away


where did you come from

silently sneaking up on me and

attacking me when I wasn’t ready

 

why did you choose me

out of millions and millions

why me, why me

 

to invade my body with your

swarming seeds flowing around

my body, killing me slowly

 

leaving me in constant pain

barely able to move or breathe

fighting to stay alive

 

as you explore every part of me

seeking and destroying

my very soul, taking me alive

 

in order that you may live

and I will die taking you

with me in my final hour

 

would it be your victory

or would it be mine

even in death

 

but I am strong

stronger than you realise

stronger than you will ever know

 

and I will fight you

for every hour of every day

wherever I go I will fight

 

to stay alive and beat you

destroy you, defeat you

to rid my body of you

 

and I will fight forever

to remain alive for another

minute in this world

 

and see you defeated

once and for all

gone forever

 

I want to see the

sun rise

the moon dance

leaves blown by the wind

streams racing by

rain bounce off pavements

 

and I will do

because I will beat you

today, tomorrow, forever