Archive for the ‘cancer’ Category

You have been with me
Twenty seven years or more
The finest cut a man ever made
Sometimes you hide from me
And I search for you slowly
To remind me of the then
And now, today, tomorrow
All my yesterdays
Perfectly put together
Like a fine glass sculpture
Nobody knows what you conceal
Days lost forever
Youth I will never get back
Memories unable to recall
But for the searing knife
Burning through flesh and organs
Moving silently, unseen, untouched
No scars remain
Except the memory of a
Deep, powerful, intense pain
As I watch every second
Drip slowly into me
The torture of water
Only the colour changes
Reminding me of time passing
Fine steel tips deep in my body
Life flows through them
Swelling my veins
Eyes kept open
That cannot see the scars of
Knives and needles
But remember the scars of
Pain and sickness
That never dim with time

where did you come from

silently sneaking up on me and

attacking me when I wasn’t ready


why did you choose me

out of millions and millions

why me, why me


to invade my body with your

swarming seeds flowing around

my body, killing me slowly


leaving me in constant pain

barely able to move or breathe

fighting to stay alive


as you explore every part of me

seeking and destroying

my very soul, taking me alive


in order that you may live

and I will die taking you

with me in my final hour


would it be your victory

or would it be mine

even in death


but I am strong

stronger than you realise

stronger than you will ever know


and I will fight you

for every hour of every day

wherever I go I will fight


to stay alive and beat you

destroy you, defeat you

to rid my body of you


and I will fight forever

to remain alive for another

minute in this world


and see you defeated

once and for all

gone forever


I want to see the

sun rise

the moon dance

leaves blown by the wind

streams racing by

rain bounce off pavements


and I will do

because I will beat you

today, tomorrow, forever