Archive for January 12, 2020


It’s May 2001. I’m feeling down, depressed. I go to the doctors for help for support. ‘What do you want me to do?’ ask my doctor. I sit there in shock. What do I do? What do I say? I leave with a box of tablets. Take these and don’t bother me again is the message I get. Go and sort yourself out.


At the moment I’m experiencing headaches on a daily basis and have been since July 2019. I’m currently waiting for the results from an MRI scan I had before Christmas. This poem reflects in part how I experience the headaches.

the excitement fades
the adrenalin goes
my body returns to normal
and they attack again
they’ve been waiting in
hiding in the deepest
recesses of my brain
waiting for the opportunity
to come out and dull
my senses, cloud my mind,
confuse me, delude me,
wear me out, make me doubt
everything i know and understand
the headaches are back
after a morning away
on holiday somewhere
returning today to cripple
my mind and body
coming back when i
least expect them
least need them
time and time again